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If my world stopped spinning toniteIf my mind was tired of thinking&& my heart sick of beatingMy lungs tired of breathing&& my feet no longer have sensation from walkingaimlessly through the worldWhat more could I do What else should I do. . .But lay my aching bones to restAcross the bed I would layPraying that God was calling me home today Tired of being pushed && pulled So many different waysHow could I go on?Who is thinking of me,Other than me.Who is thinking of my needs, wants, && desires.When do my feelings count for something, anything?When am I able to know who I really amOr better yet how I really feel without taking into account how others would reactI've pushed so hard to come this farAnd each step is more painful than the next.When is enough actually enough && I have fulfilled my earthly needs.When can I truly go home && be accepted becauseI swear I've done all I can do.When can I lay down && give up hope&& the dreams I once hadBecause I feel now that its time to lay This aching body to rest.Is that not a decision of my own?Is that not my right?I've done all I can do to make people see the real me.But now I'm ready for this world to stop spinningMy world to just come to a hault.I want to go home && be with the stars.I want to go home && be with the people I knowLoved me just for being me.There is no one in this world that feels that way anymore.And thats what I need so much.Thats so sad to say out loud.When I think 20 years old && there's no one left that cares?The way I need to be cared for.Or maybe just can't care in the way thats needed. . .But whats the difference?When you've done all you can && no one sees it?When you've tried your best && no one feels it?When you've taken care of so many people && no one is willing to do the same for you?So If my world stopped spinning toniteIf my mind was tired of thinking&& my heart sick of beatingMy lungs tired of breathing&& my feet tired from walkingaimlessly through the world&& I lay my body to rest tonitePraying that the good Lord would call me home. . .Is that okay with you?