4th of July. . .

On the 4th you were missed.

I missed you.

I've missed you everyday you've been gone.

Everyday. 4 months. 126 days. 

126 days of my life spent missing you.

Longing for you.

Wanting nothing more than to hold you.

Nothing more than for you to love me the way you use to.

Wanting nothing more than to not miss you. . .

Not miss you because you were still mines.

But instead I've spent 4 months alone.

Missing you.

4 months. 126 days. Kept count of everyday, every minute, every second.

126 days of my life spent missing you.

On the 4th you were missed.

I missed you.

I always miss you.

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No longer does she believe in second chances

Long gone are dreams of sweet romance

Her nights are no longer filled with warmth & heavenly embrace

Now they are cold & full of longing. . .

Longing for those divine kisses 

That lingering taste from his sweet lips

His squeeze never too tight, he knew how to hold her just right

Now her heart grows cold

She doesn't believe she could ever love another soul

No one could understand her pain

How could she love such a person

Although in her mind their love was never in vain

She loved him 

Every inch of him, inside & out 

Every flaw, every hair out of place

Accepted all that was wrong, it was all perfection to her

When she gazed into his eyes all was right in this world filled with hate & deceit.

But all that escapes her now, nothing could ever be right again.

She had let her soul intertwine with his. . .

&& together it created a hole, a gap, a space. . .

No, a canyon that could never be filled again

That's the fact that everyone else missed.

Not only did she fall in love with him, she fell in love with his soul too && maybe for her that's what made letting go so hard to do.

Around. . .

Th3 only qu3stion that r3mains. . .

!s aft3r the tornado has pass3d

Aft3r the hurrican3s have touch3d down. . .

Will you still b3 around?

Onc3 the roof has b33n blown away

Aft3r the walls ar3 gon3

Wh3n the foundation has b33n stripp3d from under us

Will you still be around, holding us down?

Cuz stormy days, snow, & clouds pass

They com3 & go with the changing s3asons

But what I n33d to know !s. . .

Wh3n the natural disasters hit & rip apart all w3 know wh3n w3 have nothing l3ft . . .

Will you be around, holding us down?

Wh3n m3 & you ar3 all that is l3ft. . .

W3'll have to start from scratch. . .

Brick by brick pi3c3 by pi3c3

Will you b3 around to r3build with m3?

Or will I b3 l3ft alon3

Always searching for a heart to call home.

she waits. . .

My heart bleeds for you
Needs for you
Crys for you
When will you understand
When its too little too late
Must I wait for all eternity
For you to see what we're missing
Thru all the bad I see the good
Thru all our wrongs I see beautiful rights
Nites spent lying awake thinking of the delicate music we use to make
How do you let go of something you held so close it became apart of
you,
Something like a second skin
I'm waiting for you to finally fight, because I can't do it alone
My heart beats for you, does yours still beat for me too?
I could never tell you these things, until I knew for sure
I don't think you'll ever be ready for what my mind has in store
But your a musician, use what you know
Unlock my secrets, you hold the keys to my heart
When tht chest opens you'll see what treasures, the jewels, the gems my
heart holds
You'll hear that song, our song, you'll feel it down to your toes,
It'll send shivers down your spine, it will touch your soul
you'll remember days when you were mine, when I was yours, the memories
will rapidly unfold
Then you'll smell my scent. . .do you remember it?
Close your eyes, your arms outstreched, you'll feel my face, you'll
taste my lips
Do you remember what it was like to hold me tight?
Do you remember what it was like never wanting to let go?
My music, do you hear it? The sound of my heart, it plays your favorite
song, I hear it through all my nites
My music that's what you are, the essence of me, I can't rid myself of
you. . .
Attempts have been made to find what was right, there is no other
song, no other music she will play, she has a mind of her own, I have
no
control
I digress. . .
My heart, she waits for you, she waits to feel the keys
She bleeds for you, needs for you, she waits for you. . .