4th of July. . .

On the 4th you were missed.

I missed you.

I've missed you everyday you've been gone.

Everyday. 4 months. 126 days. 

126 days of my life spent missing you.

Longing for you.

Wanting nothing more than to hold you.

Nothing more than for you to love me the way you use to.

Wanting nothing more than to not miss you. . .

Not miss you because you were still mines.

But instead I've spent 4 months alone.

Missing you.

4 months. 126 days. Kept count of everyday, every minute, every second.

126 days of my life spent missing you.

On the 4th you were missed.

I missed you.

I always miss you.

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No longer does she believe in second chances

Long gone are dreams of sweet romance

Her nights are no longer filled with warmth & heavenly embrace

Now they are cold & full of longing. . .

Longing for those divine kisses 

That lingering taste from his sweet lips

His squeeze never too tight, he knew how to hold her just right

Now her heart grows cold

She doesn't believe she could ever love another soul

No one could understand her pain

How could she love such a person

Although in her mind their love was never in vain

She loved him 

Every inch of him, inside & out 

Every flaw, every hair out of place

Accepted all that was wrong, it was all perfection to her

When she gazed into his eyes all was right in this world filled with hate & deceit.

But all that escapes her now, nothing could ever be right again.

She had let her soul intertwine with his. . .

&& together it created a hole, a gap, a space. . .

No, a canyon that could never be filled again

That's the fact that everyone else missed.

Not only did she fall in love with him, she fell in love with his soul too && maybe for her that's what made letting go so hard to do.

Thoughts. . .

I sat on the beach tonite

& nothing came to mind

No beautiful words

Or love songs to sing

Only thoughts of you

Thoughts of we

Thoughts. . . she, you, & me

Only simple thoughts of all the things we use to be

Thoughts of who I was & who I've become

Reflected on nights that I held my pillow tight

Wishing it was you, 

When missing you was s0o0o0o wrong. . .

But it felt s0o0o0o right

I've got to let go of this feeling,

But its s0o0o0o strong gripping, me s0o0o0o tight

Like a vice

I've got to move on

Because it seems you & me will never be right

In your eyes. . . 

I've realized I've got to release myself

From this prison I've created in my mind

Your love are like the bars that imprison me

It won't let me be free. . .

But I've got to move on 

Because the love that I cherish s0o0o0o 

You no longer do

& I can't keep holding on. . .

To these simple thoughts

Thoughts of she, me, & you

Thoughts of us. . .

Thoughts of me, thoughts of you. . .

I sat on the beach tonite

&& nothing beautiful came to mind

No love songs

Just thoughts

Simple thoughts . . .

Bring Me Back To You. . .

Love. . .

Its this indescribable sensation,

Something you feel from your head to your toes,

Makes you feel like I don't know, your walking on clouds 

Or moons, or stars or something

It takes you to a world you've never known.

It takes you by surprise. . .

Like when your not looking for it

There it is!

&& when its right. . .OMG is it right!

Its like nothing in this terrifying world can touch you.

No matter what your going through 

Its like loving that person && knowing they love you back

It protects you somehow.

Like your a Caterpillar in a cocoon.

Just waiting to break out, become a butterfly

&& fly away.

Love. . .

Its this incredible sensation,

&& when you have it for someone

You can never shake it. . .

Not real love, not this love. . .

Its like standing on a mountain top 

Or laying in the sand && listening to the ocean crash against the shore.

Love like that you only have for one person ever. . .

If you lucky. Because love like that. . .

You put your all into.

Love like that. . .gives you hope, gives you faith

&& no matter what happens. . .love like that can never leave you 

Even if the person who ignited that flame does. . .